| So here I am. Getting caught up in the grind. Again. Living my life not by the time the sun rises and sets but by exam dates, homework deadlines, meeting times and group project check points. Working for unspeakable hours at a time and overlooking the simple brainless pleasures of this life. Food. Sleep. Television. Even though I find myself living in this seemingly unsustainable way, I wouldn't say that I am totally unhappy. The constant hustle of my weeks excites me. I just wish that I was getting paid to be this productive. With graduation closing in on me, I'm getting nervanxious (yeah, I made that word up. It's 3 in the morning, I'm allowed to do such things) about finding work.
If I don't get a job, the back of plan is to embark on some sort of fellowship with a professor and TA my way through graduate school. If I don't get into graduate school, the back up plan is to try my hand at freelance photography. Actually, I'm not too confident in that back up plan so hopefully I can leave that as a hobby.
Back on point. I am not unhappy with my life thus far because school, as time consuming as it is, is not tremendously stressful. If I get a B or two, it's not going to affect my GPA much. Likewise if I get an A or two. School is kind of a formality at this point. Finish up my classes and get that piece of paper. Also, I'm continuing to find peace in God. I can't really explain it yet but it feels right inside. He never ceases to amaze me. I get so stressed about the littlest things and just like that, He shows me just how little these little things are. I feel like a fool for even worrying in the first place. So yeah, I'm pretty content with life thus far. This repetitive, exhaustive, time consuming cycle is only temporal.
Oh and I haven't been posting photos lately because I tried upgrading to CS4 but failed along the way and now I'm left with no image editing software. So bear with me and these strange posts filled with words. Photos are coming soon! |
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| Monday: CAD homework (3pgs), Reinforced concrete homework (7pgs), Composite Lab report (9pgs) due. Finite Elements midterm. 3 Lectures.
Tuesday: Study for Reinforced Concrete midterm. All. Day. Long.
Wednesday: Reinforced concrete midterm. 3 lectures. SCSE GBM.
Thursday: Composites Lab report and homework due. Lab.
Friday: 6 hours of class until 5PM.
Saturday: 2 Lion dance performances (UCSD and UCI) spanning from 4-10PM
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Still the happiest place on Earth? :P |
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